somehow we'll make it through this winter
huddling next to heat vents
cuddling smoking cups o' joe
poring over the patagonia catalog
not exactly chompin' at the bit, if you will
daydreaming of manual labor
rusted barbed wire, rotting fence posts
muddy work boots and musky leather gloves
physical exhaustion
unobstructed stars and sleeping bags
drinking chilean wine straight from the bottle
head banging
mason jennings reminds to be present, connected
here and now
He Loves You Deep Inside - B-Sides - Rachael Yamagata - Final Mastered B-Sides
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
Single Serve Serenade
your pajama pants are in the mail
i hope they keep you warm this winter
i figured it'd be coming back to me whole
thought the next time would be after we'd traversed full-circle
we could put the needle to the vinyl
groove to joni mitchell's blue
simon and garfunk's scarborough fair
but instead it occupies the space next to my single serve coffeemaker
iron and wine is scratched irreparably
and you didn't even bother to replace it
but don't think twice it's okay
because your i don't know means no
and it might just be better this way
i hope they keep you warm this winter
i figured it'd be coming back to me whole
thought the next time would be after we'd traversed full-circle
we could put the needle to the vinyl
groove to joni mitchell's blue
simon and garfunk's scarborough fair
but instead it occupies the space next to my single serve coffeemaker
iron and wine is scratched irreparably
and you didn't even bother to replace it
but don't think twice it's okay
because your i don't know means no
and it might just be better this way
Monday, November 2, 2009
Vigilante Justice in Montana
taking back alleys with the prospector,
absent-minded librarian,
life-size crayon crew
pursued by the torture asylum escapee,
droopy-boobed stripper
pounding tequila
smuggling sunrises
my aviators mask my shock
garish guises
bloody hand prints
dissonant, off-tune karaoke
her stray earring on the nightstand
secret somersaults in the frosted grass
twiggy and her freudian slips
i know what you women want
i don't know what the fuck you're talking about
i just wanna get laid, he declares, you gotta help me
excuse me, we have to leave now
be confident
they can sense if you're fearful
god forgive me for i have sinned
i said the f word last night
drank copious amounts of alcohol
dreamed of sexing my f
bachelor row and the gallows
we drive our truck through the sagebrush
boot-high weeds
stopping at the bandit infested
saloon cum barbershop
leading our 7 horses down the hills to the corral
lead ropes cutting my wind-chapped hands
new lines on my palm
growing like baby roots
minuscule hairs
fraying and tangling
in various directions
i stir you into my drink
mixing with grenadine and Tang
your flavors blend well
absent-minded librarian,
life-size crayon crew
pursued by the torture asylum escapee,
droopy-boobed stripper
pounding tequila
smuggling sunrises
my aviators mask my shock
garish guises
bloody hand prints
dissonant, off-tune karaoke
her stray earring on the nightstand
secret somersaults in the frosted grass
twiggy and her freudian slips
i know what you women want
i don't know what the fuck you're talking about
i just wanna get laid, he declares, you gotta help me
excuse me, we have to leave now
be confident
they can sense if you're fearful
god forgive me for i have sinned
i said the f word last night
drank copious amounts of alcohol
dreamed of sexing my f
bachelor row and the gallows
we drive our truck through the sagebrush
boot-high weeds
stopping at the bandit infested
saloon cum barbershop
leading our 7 horses down the hills to the corral
lead ropes cutting my wind-chapped hands
new lines on my palm
growing like baby roots
minuscule hairs
fraying and tangling
in various directions
i stir you into my drink
mixing with grenadine and Tang
your flavors blend well
Sunday, October 25, 2009
On the concept of Home from "Garden State"
Andrew Largeman: You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone.
Sam: I still feel at home in my house.
Andrew Largeman: You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for you kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place.
Sam: I still feel at home in my house.
Andrew Largeman: You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for you kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Pruning Season
hack off the limb of free-spiritedness
cut off the branch of wild lion hair
break off the arm of travel
shed the leaves of borrowed books
dig up the roots of community
nourish with protein, black coffee, whole wheat bread
cultivate through yoga and rapid pedaling
stroke the barren limbs
touch the stubby arms
smooth the choppy hair
hope that the seeds of responsibility and refuge
will take root
cut off the branch of wild lion hair
break off the arm of travel
shed the leaves of borrowed books
dig up the roots of community
nourish with protein, black coffee, whole wheat bread
cultivate through yoga and rapid pedaling
stroke the barren limbs
touch the stubby arms
smooth the choppy hair
hope that the seeds of responsibility and refuge
will take root
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Where's a heroine when you need one?
In other news, I’ve decided that I need to be more connected with pop culture. I’ve started reading the Stephenie Meyer “Twilight” book series. Here are my first impressions of “Twilight.”
1. Although, not as poorly written as I may have expected [from a BYU graduate… No, just kidding.]. It’s definitely not by any means well-written either. The description and word choice are boring and dull. Uninteresting. Basically, it validates my belief that literary use of the English language is becoming simpler, less diverse and bland.
2. I think the only thing Stephenie Meyer has going for her is a unique plot line. A girl falling in love with a vampire?! WTF?! Who would’ve thought! Yeah, that’s an idea I’d like to learn more about and that’s why I’m still reading it…
3. I think if people are interested in fantasy-genre books, which people seem to be with the immense popularity of these SM books and the Harry Potter series, there is a whole slew of fantasy books, that are written SOOO much better and are so much more riveting and complex and fabulous. I would recommend the Lloyd Alexander series and the ever classic Tolkien Lord of the Rings series. Tolkien uses sensory detail, almost Annie Dillard style, and description of forests that will last up to 20 pages sometimes. I would by far, take that over a Stephenie Meyer one-sentence description of Bella’s town. Tell me more, damn it!
4. Lastly and most centrally, I am frustrated with SM’s protagonist, Bella. She is what I would describe as a weak, whiney, insecure, self-antagonizing girl. The problem I have with that is A. Most of the time, that’s what I hear inside my head and what I try and fight against. B. If I were to go back and re-read my lock-and-key diary from 7th grade, it would sound the same way. C. If we were to interview the inner thoughts of the majority of junior high age girls, they would sound exactly like SM’s Bella. I don’t want to listen to another weak and self-defeating woman. Period! I think women have enough voices to listen to selling us products to make us skinnier, tanner, hairy-less, longer lashed, longer legged, fuller headhaired, less frizzed etc. because we seem to be deficient in seemingly significant ways and overabundant in other areas. We’re never going to feel perfectly content with who we are, naturally.
Furthermore, with women being used to sell things, we can never get past the idea, that we’re just a means to an end. We’re the mode that’s accomplishing the product pushing, we’re the reward that will be realized if we purchase the item, and we’re the item that needs to be modified in some way, because we’re not good enough as-is.
My Point: I want and NEED to hear from strong, brave women. I want to surround myself with them. I want to have coffee with Mari A., Cathy D., Heather T., Jenna H., and Karlee J. I want to read the 1940’s era Maud Hart Lovelace’s Betsy series over and over again- read about Besty who travels the world curious, fearless and sponge-like, soaking up the marvelous world around her. I want to read about Audre Lorde’s 1960’s Zami, who is a misfit, in every possible way. She’s black and lesbian. She doesn’t “match” the world around her, but she ends up developing a new spelling of her name and a new way of negotiating with the world around her. Beautiful! Fantastic! Yes, she struggles, A LOT, but she is strong and she triumphs. I want to listen to Ani DiFranco and Tracy Chapman who make me cry and feel understood and who write the most astoundingly truthful lyrics ever. I want to read Sylvia Plath’s poetry because she infuses her writing with the most personally-felt beautiful life metaphors that can still resonate with women everywhere.
In summary, woman must have and desperately need strong women as role models. In a world where Roman Polanskies get away with the rape of 13-year-old girls for 40 some years because we still live in an age where rape is conceptualized as simply being under force and violent between strangers, one female, young and virgin, and the other male demented, and old, and all the gray areas, of drunkenness, homosexuality, non-consent, and acquaintance-ship make for a much more complicated definition.
I don’t know about you, but I’m crying out for heroines, like Juno, Harriet the Spy, and even Carrie Bradshaw, and I’m just not seeing it in SM’s Bella.
1. Although, not as poorly written as I may have expected [from a BYU graduate… No, just kidding.]. It’s definitely not by any means well-written either. The description and word choice are boring and dull. Uninteresting. Basically, it validates my belief that literary use of the English language is becoming simpler, less diverse and bland.
2. I think the only thing Stephenie Meyer has going for her is a unique plot line. A girl falling in love with a vampire?! WTF?! Who would’ve thought! Yeah, that’s an idea I’d like to learn more about and that’s why I’m still reading it…
3. I think if people are interested in fantasy-genre books, which people seem to be with the immense popularity of these SM books and the Harry Potter series, there is a whole slew of fantasy books, that are written SOOO much better and are so much more riveting and complex and fabulous. I would recommend the Lloyd Alexander series and the ever classic Tolkien Lord of the Rings series. Tolkien uses sensory detail, almost Annie Dillard style, and description of forests that will last up to 20 pages sometimes. I would by far, take that over a Stephenie Meyer one-sentence description of Bella’s town. Tell me more, damn it!
4. Lastly and most centrally, I am frustrated with SM’s protagonist, Bella. She is what I would describe as a weak, whiney, insecure, self-antagonizing girl. The problem I have with that is A. Most of the time, that’s what I hear inside my head and what I try and fight against. B. If I were to go back and re-read my lock-and-key diary from 7th grade, it would sound the same way. C. If we were to interview the inner thoughts of the majority of junior high age girls, they would sound exactly like SM’s Bella. I don’t want to listen to another weak and self-defeating woman. Period! I think women have enough voices to listen to selling us products to make us skinnier, tanner, hairy-less, longer lashed, longer legged, fuller headhaired, less frizzed etc. because we seem to be deficient in seemingly significant ways and overabundant in other areas. We’re never going to feel perfectly content with who we are, naturally.
Furthermore, with women being used to sell things, we can never get past the idea, that we’re just a means to an end. We’re the mode that’s accomplishing the product pushing, we’re the reward that will be realized if we purchase the item, and we’re the item that needs to be modified in some way, because we’re not good enough as-is.
My Point: I want and NEED to hear from strong, brave women. I want to surround myself with them. I want to have coffee with Mari A., Cathy D., Heather T., Jenna H., and Karlee J. I want to read the 1940’s era Maud Hart Lovelace’s Betsy series over and over again- read about Besty who travels the world curious, fearless and sponge-like, soaking up the marvelous world around her. I want to read about Audre Lorde’s 1960’s Zami, who is a misfit, in every possible way. She’s black and lesbian. She doesn’t “match” the world around her, but she ends up developing a new spelling of her name and a new way of negotiating with the world around her. Beautiful! Fantastic! Yes, she struggles, A LOT, but she is strong and she triumphs. I want to listen to Ani DiFranco and Tracy Chapman who make me cry and feel understood and who write the most astoundingly truthful lyrics ever. I want to read Sylvia Plath’s poetry because she infuses her writing with the most personally-felt beautiful life metaphors that can still resonate with women everywhere.
In summary, woman must have and desperately need strong women as role models. In a world where Roman Polanskies get away with the rape of 13-year-old girls for 40 some years because we still live in an age where rape is conceptualized as simply being under force and violent between strangers, one female, young and virgin, and the other male demented, and old, and all the gray areas, of drunkenness, homosexuality, non-consent, and acquaintance-ship make for a much more complicated definition.
I don’t know about you, but I’m crying out for heroines, like Juno, Harriet the Spy, and even Carrie Bradshaw, and I’m just not seeing it in SM’s Bella.
Friday, October 2, 2009
yeah fucking right (aka the most liberating fb response ever)
Thank you for your request. Unfortunately, you don't meet the requirements for a friend and consequently, you are denied, motha fucka!
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